It was a completely overwhelming, emotional, and absolutely beautiful blur. From the moment we walked out the doors of the church into the limo to the country club, I couldn’t quite keep up with the evening from there. Going into your wedding day, everyone tells you this. That the day is an absolute blur and you’re not going to remember anything. They also tell you that something will go wrong and you’re going to have to accept it. Well to be honest, though I thought I believed them, I was darn determined for neither of those scenarios to be full-blown. After all, I had obsessively planned every.little.detail AND I grew up performing! Being in a room of close to 200 people and being the center of attention? No prob. I got this in the bag.
I did not have it in the bag. The bag was plastic and it ripped somewhere en route from the church to the country club. I was overwhelmed, introverted, and I took the details that didn’t go as planned to heart. It’s really, really hard for me to type and admit that. Like, pit in my stomach hard. So why even share it?
As you can see, our wedding reception was beautiful. Full of details and touches and all of my planning work finally together as one. Emotional and heartfelt moments with the ones we’re closest with. A gift from my parents that brings me to tears every single time I think about it because it’s a gift I could never even begin to repay them for. But… it wasn’t perfect. And in a wedding industry and world blown to mega proportions with the facade that everything needs to be absolutely stunning and go off without a hitch for that happily ever after type wedding and everlasting love, that’s why I feel like I have to share it.
When we look at weddings with eyes of perfection, we’re bound to fail. We’re bound to feel disappointment. And as every single wedding site, blog, or random girl or friend you follow on Instagram posts “bestest most perfect day ever” as the caption for her wedding photos, I always have to wonder if they truly mean that. Call me cynical, call me a Debbie Downer, or maybe just call me realistic… but for me, our wedding reception was a challenging evening. It was a night where I felt stretched emotionally. It was an evening where I felt extremely overwhelmed by a multitude of circumstances. And you know what? I’m learning that it’s okay to admit that.
Please, please, please hear me in this honesty. It is not to complain. It is not to dishonor what an incredible gift of a reception it was. It’s simply to share that this whole reception being overwhelming thing is REAL and that I hope by me sharing our experience, it will open a door for other husbands and wives to feel freedom in the fact that wedding perfection is not a standard that any of us can or need to live up to.
I look at our wedding day as a whole as a pretty darn good intro to our first year of marriage. So exciting, so beautiful, so emotional, and so overwhelming. And I’m thankful for the ability to see that and feel immense blessing within it. On August 8, 2015, I needed strength from the Lord to make it through. And for the 362 days following, I have continued to need His strength. And that, my readers, is what I’ve learned this whole ‘getting married’ thing is all about.
Getting married is signing up for a life long road of imperfection with the grace of God by your side. A commitment through it all. From the beautiful moments to the painful ones. It’s about submitting and sacrificing your needs for your spouses. It’s about seeing things in yourself that are sinfully ugly and submitting them to the Lord so that you can learn and grow to be a better wife (or husband). It’s about owning where you fall short and celebrating where you succeed. It’s about fighting the enemy in Jesus’ name to resist the ever-creeping temptation to throw in the towel and end things. It’s about realizing that a beautiful party to celebrate your love is a wonderful thing, but the best party of our lives will never be here on this earth. It will be a feast with Jesus! A uniting of Heaven and Earth someday, a promise that we are given with His grace.
What a gift it has been to share our wedding here with y’all this week. The photos and the truth behind them. Our prayer as a couple has been that every single person who has or will clicked through would hear our words with nothing but love behind them and to see a bit more of how we view and work through our marriage.
Thank y’all so much for following along with me this week! Your support means so incredibly much. And on Monday, our actual anniversary, I may just have one more wedding trick up my sleeve! Last one, I promise!
If you have any other questions regarding our wedding planning, venue, and vendors, don’t hesitate to reach out and ask! You can always shoot me an email at firstname.lastname@example.org. I’d be giddy to share! 🙂